Go to Oxbridge, get an education, start a career. Do all the right things. Buy a flat, art, a sort of happiness. Keep your head down. Keep quiet. And keep going. An unnamed Black British woman is preparing to attend a lavish garden party at her boyfriend's old family estate. At the same time, all the carefully assembled pieces of her life are sliding into place. So why does she feel so terrible? Shortlisted for the Goldsmith Prize 2021.